I\u2019m staying at my mother\u2019s home for a month while she\u2019s away on a trip. To say staying here brings up a lot of feelings and memories is to say the least. Like I said last week, I love being here, but it also brings to the surface one of my biggest fears.<\/p>\n
For the past few days I have been unable to write this week\u2019s post. Most weeks I know what to write, and the words flow freely. But some times are harder than others, and at the moment I\u2019m battling a fear full on, which probably is why I had a hard time getting to this week\u2019s lesson. I did the only thing that works if I have a hard time to write – let it all go and go for a walk.<\/p>\n
I drove down to one of my favorite places. It\u2019s a place my grandmother used to take me to. We used to go there to pluck lilies of the valley in the spring, for an adventure during the summer, or to get moss to use for decorations in the winter. As I was walking I let the thought of what this week has left me with, and how that relates to our theme \u2019home\u2019 simmer in the back of my mind. I let myself sit still on a fallen tree and just listen to the birds in the forrest, and watch what nature had to offer. The lilies of the valley had just started to bloom. So I pluck some, and thought; Home is within me. Home is not a place, nor a region. Home is my center, my soul.<\/p>\n
The fear I am battling at the moment is, like any fear, not real. It\u2019s just the sum of experiences that have falsely told me it\u2019s a real threat to my safety. And this fear makes me want to question the safety, the stillness, the wholeness of my soul, i.e. it indirectly tells me my \u2019home\u2019 is unsafe.<\/p>\n
So what do you do about it? You test yourself. You put yourself in situations that confronts you to the fear, and then let you choose a better way to handle it than you have done before. And you give yourself a whole lot of love. So I have prescribed myself a double dose of self care and self love. I don\u2019t know if I\u2019ll ever get rid of this fear, but I surely will give it my best try.<\/p>\n
Mhairi and I are always on the lookout for symbols and messages to guide us or help us. The very fact that the beautiful lily of the valley had just started to bloom feels like the perfect sign that I\u2019m on the right way. After all, the flower\u2019s meaning is the return of happiness, and that is what this surrender to the fear will get me. I\u2019m righting wrongs, because it\u2019s time to get rid of the last big fears that limit me in my daily life.\u00a0 So here\u2019s to fighting fears and the blooming of the lily of the valley!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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