The Bead Movement

It’s been an unusual January week. Normally January is our coldest month, but this week has been warm with temperatures over zero degrees Celsius – all snow has melted. In my kitchen garden I see the leftover weeds from 2024’s harvest, calling me to clean it up. There is something to January that calls on […]

I’ve read about how sick a baby can get from the most common cold or flu, needing hospitalization or life support. So it has been my biggest fear since Henry was born six months ago. Last week we got a cold. I’ve been down for a week, Henry was a little better off, but instead […]

I have always felt a need to turn inward when everyone proclaim their New Year’s resolutions. Not until this winter did I understand why.  Winter is a time for hibernation. Nature rests under the snowy surface, animals have stocked up or sleep for months. Instead of taking this time to do something similar, the western […]

Strong wasn’t the only word I found myself feeling resistance to. After having come across the word ‘fearless’ I realized that my thirty-year-old self had tried to manifest her way into a life without hardship. The only problem with that is that there is no such life. What I have learned during this past decade […]

I was telling Mhairi the other day that I almost get offended every time I come across one of the words in my jar. Intrigued, she asked about it. The word “strong”. My ten year younger self probably thought the word would instill me with power, forward movement and stamina. Maybe it did, because the […]

For three weeks I looked at my life and saw the change that has taken place over this past decade. Compared to where I was back then, I am more honest to myself now. The beads have had an impact. But this week, I can’t help but see all the places where I’m dishonest to […]

My four-months-old baby has hit sleep regression. We have had the luxury of quite good sleep and a very happy and content baby, but now he wakes up in despair crying every second hour during night and has a hard time napping without my presence. When we were at the hospital for a last check […]