Grace isn’t just the light in one’s soul or a way of being kind and good towards others. Grace also implies standing up for oneself. It’s also someone who has a great posture.
I met a person this week who made me feel small. It doesn’t happen to me that often anymore, but when it happens it throws me off guard. It was something in this person’s attitude that made me shrink, that said that I wasn’t good enough. After the meeting I thought that I haven’t gone through everything in my life in order to let myself be determined by others. I am better than that.
Someone once said, “Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but how we react to what happens, not by what life brings us but the attitude we bring to life.” So a few minutes after the meeting I made a deal with myself, I am not letting that happen again. I refuse to feel belittled by others. And what makes me a bit angry is that the situation has nothing to do with the other person. It’s not they who determine my life, it’s me. I choose what I let to disturb me.
What also came to me when pondering this situation, in the context of grace and posture, was that I in fact tend to slump on a daily basis. Not symbolically speaking, but physically. I don’t always have that great posture I mindfully wish to lead my life by. Something tells me that my not so gracious posture is an externalization of something internal. Mhairi often speaks of how the body language reveal the people, so this realization made me make an active decision.
I made another deal with myself. I am going to work on my posture, because who knows what is what? Am I slumping because my body still have a pattern of something internal, or can I help the healing and my inner peace by learning my external self to stand up tall? Either way, I will give it a try! So here I find myself on a soulful Sunday doing posture exercises and sending no more slump-shouldery wishes from Stockholm,