Writing a script is an act of faith for me. I can become frozen with fear with all the technicalities, the rules, the points that need to be covered by which pages, the turning points etc etc. I am an actress and haven’t been trained really at all in the art of script writing. I feel a fraud to even dip my toe into a world in which people have studied and worked hard at for years. But here I am plunging in anyway.
Last year someone said to me that if I had the desire to write the script then I must trust that desire and know that it will work out. The point being that if my heart was saying to write then write because my heart would not be leading me up the garden path. Essentially trust myself that if my heart desires to write it then I will be able to.I didn’t really agree with him then because I saw the script as being a means to an end. In order to perform my character I needed a vehicle and therefore it needed to be written. But this week I have taken the fear out of it and brought it back to its simpler form of just telling the story. I think for me faith is about taking the emotion, the anxiety, the drama out of a situation and really going back to what will be will be. Do what you have to do in your heart and don’t over analyze. Its not for you to edit or block.
As the dancer and choreographer Martha Graham so eloquently said: There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all of time, this expression is unique. And if you block it it will never exist through any other medium and it will be lost. The world will not have it. It’s not your business to determine how good it is nor how valuable nor how it compares with other expressions. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open.
So there you go. Step forward confidently and with faith. Life is short and if you have a passion for something then that it is there for a reason. Its not just happenstance. Don’t allow judgement or self sabotage to stop you. Just do it and have faith that the road will come up to meet you. Be daring, darling.actress, dare, faith, Martha Graham, Mhairi Morrison, The bead movement, write